So, I'm wondering, is it only me whom weird or everybody around my age & above whom single is desperate enough to find a mate ? Am I counted as a weirdo if I'm on my early 20, and I never think about love relationship, more over.. marriage..? You can say I'm totally a freak because I never think about such things... But well... @___@; Well... Some single friends are truly looking for boyfriends / girlfriends.. They feel so lonely without lover.. Like their friends are nothing compare to ONE lover...  I know a friend means nothing in this case, but... Am I that useless as a friend ? Even when we're a pretty close friend ? I think I just want to live, truly alone... (since those single friends whom craving for lover are totally don't care about having me as their friend)
They prefer to hang out with friends whom already have lover, or have experience in love thingie, or in the same boat with them. Those single friends of mine, are trying very hard to find lover in my opinion. They're more dressed up, and I was happy about it... until they began to 'dump' me for being ordinary & not looking a mate...  So what if I don't go out and attend parties ? So what if I don't dressed up in fashionable way like those pretty girls ? So what if I don't get drunk and don't have millions clubbing nights ? So what if I'm not interested in having a lover just to ease my loneliness ? For God sake, my God, arghhh ! I feel lonely ? Yes, sometimes. Does it mean I need a lover ? No, thank you. I'm a very old fashioned minded people. Once I'm in a relationship, I'll think about our future, abour engagement, marriage, kids, etc... I know we don't always marry our current lover, but it doesn't mean I must think like that too... Being lonely isn't something bad for me. I spend most of my time alone, only by myself. I can browse the internet for hours just me, myself and I. I can go out to a mall, have a good lunch or dinner, watch 1 or 2 movies, and yeah... just me, myself and I. I can spend many hours in taking photographs of foods and dolls... yeahhh... just me, myself and I. I feel lonely not because no one accompany me, but because no one I can share my feeling or thought. But I can handle that, it's not my first time for being lonely. I prefer myself stuck in solitude for the rest of my life, than having bunch of friends whom always find me just for throwing tantrum...  So yeah... Being Single, In a Relationship, and Married ? Status is not important for me, the way you live for your life is much more important. Everything has their own plus & minus points. So, rather than busying yourself in finding lover, why don't you think about finding a good job, or a nice hobby ? I'm not a 100% serious person, I love to have fun sometimes, but I don't want to waste my time & money for finding a lover. I don't care if I'm not marriage in upcoming 10 years, 20 years, or forever. People can talk behind my back and in front of me, but I don't owe them any single thing.
If you don't like me, just go and leave me in peace. If you decide to stay here, bear with me. I won't leave just because you hate me. If I make you disgust, it's my bad, I'm sorry. But each of us have different point and view in this life. Take and deal with it, or just walk away. I don't mad or angry or jealous with those single friends of me. I just want them to be happy. If finding a lover will make you happy, than I wish you all the best in find your prince or princess. But don't treat me like I'm a stain in your life that full of romance dreams... Just tell me, you don't want to be my friend anymore. I won't bite, since I'm tired of your selfishness too... 
~ Vienni
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