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I made this writing below for someone I love so much whom passed away 100 days ago... He left all of his beloved family, friends, fans [including me ofcourse...] Hope you all like it... ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ 
Dear Jasmine You... Hello... I'm Vienni... Your & Versailles' fan from Indonesia... Dear Jasmine You... I'm missing you so much... I want to see you even it's very impossible... I feel so desperate when heard you're gone forever... I even couldn't bear with it...Dear Jasmine You... I cried for days after your leaving... I keep listening to Versailles' songs for weeks... I just want to hear your playing, again and again...Dear Jasmine You... It's been 100 days since you're passed away... Yet I still missing you... I'm still thinking about you and the other members playing together... Dear Jasmine You... I hope you're happy in Heaven... If we can't meet in this world... Maybe we can meet on the other world... Dear Jasmine You... I still love you... Yes... Still love you... For me, you always live in my heart... Dear Jasmine You... Please wait for me... One day... We will meet... Forever love you, Vienni...
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| Dear Diary, 
When I thought there's no other man than Gackt in my heart for years, I found Kamijo around 2 or 3 years ago. And I fell in love with his wonderful voice, his elegant style, his white pale skin, his sharp eyes, his beautiful vampiric face, his sexy body, his blonde hair, his everything ! his touch perhaps ? 
** I even make my upcoming "son" with a mix of Kamijo's image + someone, kekeke ** It just like I found my lost Prince Gackt in Malice Mizer era~  But you must know, Kamijo is not a copy cat of Gackt. He's totally different, but take the same place with Gackt in my heart. Gackt is number one in my deepest heart, so does him. My prince Kamijo... My prince Gackt... 
Kamijo really respects Gackt. We can see it in a video when Gackt is talking with Kamijo. Kamijo with his previous band was a Malice Mizer Roadie. And he really admires and fully respects Gackt. ** don't they will make a sweet couple ? **  ** runaway, before GakuHai's fans stomp my head to the deepest part of earth ** Ah... I love both of them...  I don't know how my life is without knowing and loving them. They're very beautiful and seducing.. They're... Hm... What to call them... Gorgeous noble vampiric men... 
And I'm totally happy to know, Kamijo's band ~ Versailles, will release their 1st major album... At last... ** tears of happiness ** Jubilee will be released at January 20, 2010. I've pre-ordered it since 2 or 3 months ago, but too bad it got canceled, so I must pre-order it again, bweh... But it's okay~ (^___^)v I'll pre-order it again~ I do everything for my honey bunny Versailles dear~ I love them so much~  The title is so unique. I'm wondering how's my reaction when see it~ (^___^)~ Happy~ 私のヴェルサイユ〜  I'm happy with the fact I was born & got "V" as 1st letter on my name. Since I love "V"ersailles and "V"olturi, I can't be happier than now... XDb 
** do please change your name, Dear Vaius~ ** XDD 
And... Yeah... I really want to see Gackt & Versailles' live concert. I always watch them at videos, and want to see them in person.. They're too beautiful to be true... Huee... T^T ** I love you more than I can say, I love you twice as much tomorrow ** 
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Though lotsa people against me about this, including my mom and dad, but I still continuously loving my princes. People think I'm crazy because I love men with thick make up and weird style of fashion. What's wrong with loving them ? I ever see them without make up and in ordinary outfits. And yet they still beautiful to me...  
** don’t you die just by seeing Gackt on his bathrobe ? So damn smexy ! **  Anyway... What makes me love them even more, it's because they love their fans to death. They know how to make their fans "die" in happiness, heheh... 
** I'm truly a Vadako, since I die and live so many times in loving 'em **  


Can a doctor cure my love sickness ? Which doctor can heal me...? It’s both of painful and pleasure... Please heal me, My Dear Doctor... 
** the most handsome doctor I ever see... Daddy Cullen...**  Oh well... I know there’s another handsome doctor... A very handsome one... Lucky me, that handsome doctor lives here, heheh... 
N.B : Whee... In my stressful life with hell of assignments, I still find happiness. I met Xiah (Sha) & Shirei-San some days ago at campus.  It's been so long since our last meet, so I feel so happy~ I only got chance to say "Hi" to Xiah, but I have a chit-chat with Shirei-San.. ** happy ** N.B (again) : Do you know, I was an alumnae of Kemurnian II School ? I was there from Kindergarten 'till Senior High.  And I just realized, there're some cosplayers whom studied there while they're in Senior High. Xiah & his sister.. Yuurin & Younan.. and... Billy... ** still more, but I forget their name, sorry... ** I miss the time when talking and laughing with them freely... Hope they're doing fine now... ^___^ N.B (last, I promise) : Do you know an instrumental song titled "Romance d'Amour" ? It's a very beautiful song, really... Hear it for the 1st time when I watched a Korean Drama titled "Autumn in My Heart ~ Endless Love".
The drama itself is one of my fave all time, I always cry when watch it...  Okay, I'm really done this time. Thanks for the time, My Dearest Diary... God bless all of us always~ Kind regards, Vienni M.S Camui ** runaway before all of Gackt's fans scratch me & pull my Sadako's hair ** XD~ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ All photos, pictures & emoticons are credited to the respective owners. Some of them are credited to me.
That's for now. Until then, bye bye... 
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| Guys... Sorry for these past weeks... I've been so rude to everybody just because I'm in the horrible mood... I'm seeking for you forgiveness... ;___; Truly sorry for being nasty, annoying, rude, etc etc... I'm trying to manage myself now... Thanks to some close friends whom cheering and helping me to reduce my stress and anger level... Arigatoo... And... Thanks for reading... ;A;
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| ~A New Fresh Beginning Ahead~

Wow... I can believe it... I'm on my 7th semester right now... Time runs so fast, eh ? It just like yesterday I entered my campus as a 1st semester student... And now... I'm doing my thesis...
Okay, speaking of new semester... I really got exhausted even it's not a month yet... Lotsa assignments and papers that must be done... Also my thesis with one of my best friend... Oh... I hope I can make it... And yeah, finally after being forced by some lovely people, I'm on Twitter now. I will update frequently & everyday~ So, if don't give an update there, it means I'm not online... And also... you mostly can find my current mood update there... ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ For the 1st time in my life, I went to the cinema alone and watching romantic-comedy movie... I watched The Proposal. What a nice and entertaining movie~

Love it~ Somehow, it looks like a fairytale story, get a nice and beautiful person as our lover~ But who knows it will be more than a dream comes true ? And I still wait and wait for my prince... Someday my prince will come soon... My prince Gackt~ 
  Yes, Gackt always be my beloved prince in my heart~  
***too much daydreaming... must wake up...*** ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ And I have my first experience in watching 3D at Cinema. I watched The Final Destination...
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I also had a happy reunion time with some friends. Even only so little time we shared, but I feel very grateful~ They're my beloved friends from campus It's been so long since our last time hang out together... I miss all of these beautiful girls... By the way... Did we look like a one big happy family, eh ?

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Another mini reunion at the end of the month~ Thanks everybody~ No, I don't have photos of us... What I have is our foods' photos... ^^;
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Okay... I never make a tutorial before... So... If you find any mistake, please forgive me... It's a simple tutorial about how to make a plastic book jacket, so your precious novels, comics, magazines, etc., won't get dirty or folded... I inherit this way from my mom... Simple and easy, trust me.
For the 1st, we need the book we want to cover it with plastic, cutter, plastic for covering books, and ruler. Put the book on the plastic, try to measure how much you need the plastic. Then you can cut the plastic.
There you go, 1 small plastic for my newest Sherlock Holmes novel~ Fold the plastic into two, just to make sure its balance. Then open the plastic again, put a ruler like in the pic & cut a little... See, that much that you must cut~
Repeat it again in the other sides as well...
Repeat it until all sides are cut into a right one, like in the pic. Then fold it.
Again, for the other side, fold it. And now fold the plastic in to two like in the pic 2. Fold the plastic to the inside of the book, see pic for detail.
Repeat it for all sides. Ta-da... It's almost done~
Okay for the final touch : Put some books, about 3 or 4 books above that Sherlock Holmes' novel~ Leave it for 1 or 2 days. After that, you will get your book pressed by the books above it and the plastic is stick with your book w/o any glue~
How about it ? Let me know if you give it a try~ Post the result if necessary~ Or if you have any problems or questions, do comment here. I'll try my best to help and figure your problems out~ ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ It's pretty difficult for me to loving and idolizing someone~ And for ages, I've been deeply in love with Ayumi Hamasaki & Gackt, 2 beautiful & talented artist from Japan.
And FYI, I also have my fave talented actress from Japan. If you're a television drama lover, perhaps you all never hear her name, because she's not an actress who performs at television drama. She performs on a stage with her troupe, and she is in an all-female-member theater group called, Takarazuka.
Her name is... Mizu Natsuki... And I love her very much... Very...
She's totally beautiful and talented ! Her role as Oscar from Rose of Versailles really kills me~
I always wondering and wishing, one day I can come to Japan & watch her show. She also has a golden voice~ She has a vocal group named Aqua5~ See photos below, she is the blonde one~
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ You know, I'm an old and traditional people. I love everything classic, for example : Outfit, Music, Theater, House's Interior & Exterior~
And when listening to japanese music (like Malice Mizer, Lareine & Versailles), it's always bring me back to the 15 or 16th century of European countries~ 
Just like I live in that century, an era where woman wears petticoat and beautiful dresses & man wears tuxedo or other formal outfits~ 
I love those japanese bands so much~ With their beautiful appearance, lovely songs, golden voice & extravagant style, they just like a portrait of classic elegance...
That's why I also love these mangas :
![[large][AnimePaper]scans_Count-Cain_Ramius_52416](http://x1f.xanga.com/75df5b10d3c33255654154/s203309695.jpg) ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ You know what... I've lost my passion in photography again... I dunno why... I'm easily lost interest right now... Phew... I dunno how to bring it back... My sweet little darling tried so hard to help me... Thanks, Baby... But it doesn't work... Her photos wasn't good enough... I've tried to take bunch pics of her, because I think it will bring back my mood... But it's not... Some of her last shoots weren't good enough... I feel so sad again bad this time... ~ if i said i'm sad, ppl think i'm too sensitive... N.B (perhaps related with my lost interest) = For a special friend ~ Dear, you tell lie to her, and you also tell lie to me... Or we can say that you make a meet with me and you said it's our secret meet, you don't tell her about this secret meet... But you also have a secret meet with her, and you don't tell me too...
I got it, Dear... You wanna play secret game, eh...? Fine, Dear... I don't like secret in friendship... But yeah, I don't care anyway... But if you find any change in my reaction towards you, nah you know why...
I'm not your trash can, where you can throw your madness to me, and share your happy time with the others... Do you think I will still keep you as my friend, if you continue doing that to me...? ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Until then... Tha tha~ 
And...
. . . Silent . . . is . . . Golden . . .
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| Holiday -Part 2-
~The Lost Angel~

I feel like I'm a lost fallen angel from Heaven. Sounds so high, but I just feel so Gacktish this month. So in love with Gackt's song titled Lost Angel.
I do believe, every human are fallen angel.
And depend on their living way in this world, can they go back to Heaven as a pure angel, or straightly to Hell as risen demon~
So... Choose your path now... And follow your heart...
~Forgive my bad editing, Gackt-Sama~ T___T
Here I share some of my activities at August 2009. Let the photos tell you, what I've done (sounds LP, haha)...
It's hard to hide the sad part of my life, the tears and the pain... But... I believe, there's a sweet happiness for every tears we shed...

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First one, hang out with members of Genk Bengiz Penggocip. We were watching Up from Disney & Pixar. Very entertaining & sad movie. Then continue to eat some delicious pancake.
It's been so long since our last time, hang out and having fun like this. Waiting for more happy time like this, Everyone~ 
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Second one, hang out with members of De Noraxs. We were eating at Kin no Taki Restaurant. Very happy & memorable. 
It's pretty hard to gather all of the members, because everyone's so busy... Actually not all members are coming... Our 'father' doesn't come, huh... 
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Third one, hang out with Lin, one of my very best friend. We were watching G.I. Joe : The Rise of Cobra & eating sushi at Hachi Hachi Bistro. Very entertaining movie & happy finally can eat sushi again.
I can't blink while watching this movie ! Such a greattt movie~ Love it ! 
The day I go with Lin, it's a day when I know someone I love passed away the day before... See the bottom for detail...

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The fourth, some leftover from Senior High. Gosh... Look at that name I put on my Accounting & English assignment~~

Yeah, close friends know that I'm crazy about FF VII & Yuki Kaori-Sama. When I like something, I will be like this... Forgive me...
Wanna see my old fan art of Cloud from FF VII game...? Here we go.



  

 Don't slap me because this bad fan art. I'm not a good sketcher. And I also not a big fan of Cloud. I'm more into Sephiroth-Sama.
And here's the retouch version. Edit it with photoshop. I hope nobody will send me to hell because of my bad drawing...



  

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And the fifth, some small reunion with primary school friends. So happy until we forget to take pics. Fool me...
We discussed and talked about our past, very funny. I even tell them, who was my first BF. Haha... 
Also tell them, about my crush back on primary school. He was (and still) a cute and super nice boy. How come I didn't have a crush on him ? It was a curse for him maybe, LOL...
I miss you, dear old friends. Thanks for the time. Miss & love you always...  ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Sixth, a date with Mon~ Actually Mon wanted Up so bad, but I force both of us to watch G.I. Joe. And Up was out from the cinema, so no more choice, hehe... *evil's smile*
It's very worth every single penny to watch G.I. Joe for 2 times. I love it very much ! Such a wonderful movie~ 
Ah, hey... If you don't like that movie, please don't comment here. -___-;;; I don't want to hear people are saying bad things about the one that I love so much... Got it ?
Man, I love the Joe's and the villainnn ! Damn, those sexy men... *kiss*

Have another date after this movie. Still with Mon and another combo with J, nyehehe... \(^∀^)メ(^∀^)ノ
And not forget to watch VS Arashi. This episode is about Gackt-San & Daisuke-San VS all Arashi members.
MUST SEE (both G.I. Joe & VS Arashi~) !!!
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The seventh, my newest Ayumi Hamasaki's single was has home~ Very happy~~  It's been so long since my last time purchasing Ayu-Sama's original japanese stuffs...
I dun really like the cover, but the songs are lovely, very summery~~ :3 Ayu-Sama... Ganbatte~!! ^0^
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The eighth, another date with Lin, hoho~ 仲良し(*・∀・)/♡\(・∀・*)だよ We were eating lotsa sushiii at Hachi Hachi Bistro and watched District 9.
Oh yes, I learn one thing here. Even alien is more human than human itself... Alien really appreciate friendship, loyalty, and family. Gosh... Human...? Beuh... 
After watching that movie, we were eating some desserts at Honeymoon Dessert~ So yummy~~ I love it~ Thanks for the hang out, Honey~ 
Tako, Idako & Chuka Kurage Nigiri Sushi are our fave & must eat item, everytime we visit Hachi Hachi Bistro~
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Ninth, hohoho... :3 A date with J, myuhuhuhu~~~ Extra happiness~ It's been so long since our last date, hahaha...
We had our dinner at American Grill~ J treat me, aww~ Thank you so much, Honey !! I give you a kiss as a payback~ 
Try some edible art, just like Edward's saying to Bella at canteen~ XD Oh I miss the Cullen~ 
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Holiday will over soon. New semester will come up. New fresh beginning ahead. I must survive.
I must do my best for my life. I may not deserve happiness in this world, but I will try to make my beloved happy. I will do everything to make them smile and laugh.
Yosh, 戦う! 八(^□^*) タノム!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Last, but not least. My daughter has home. Her name is Fumiko Hiroyuki a.k.a Fedora.
Kyaaa~~~!!! Double triple happinesssssss~~~ 
My very first Ball Jointed Doll. Aww, I can't imagine finally I can have her~ Still so exciting, and can't believeeee she's here for realll... 
Actually the 1st time I saw BJD on internet is around 3 or 4 years ago. The 1st BJD I saw is her, a Pitts from Dream of Doll. I got stunned with her beauty and cuteness~ Her sweet and beautiful lips + her lovely head mold... 

I try to save for her, though I know it's impossible. I save a little by little, since I'm unemployed and only have pocket money as a student... Many many things happened before I can have her.
But here she is, right next to me, sit so nicely and I love her to bits~ My beautiful daughter~ I love youuu so much~ Muach~~  Anyway~ She's engaged to my friend's son, hehe...  She just met her fiancée some weeks ago, and they look so sweet together, aww... Can't help myself from taking photos of them... Too beautiful to be true... 
Sounds crazy to call a BJD as our children. But for me, she's my daughter. You don't like it ? Just go away, pretend that you ever see us.
I give her a nickname, it's Fei. She's so cute and adorable. I just can't get enough of her cuteness. Fei is my light in the darkness. She's always by my side, everytime I sad and feel alone.
You know why I name her like that ?



  

Her full name is Fumiko Hiroyuki : Fumiko means Child of Treasured Beauty, while Hiroyuki means Widespread Happiness and the origin of her name is Japanese.
Her other name is Fedora : Fedora means God's Gift, and the origin of the name Fedora is Russian.
Her nickname is Fei : Fei means Fragrant, and the origin of the name Fei is Chinese.

  



So you now clearly understand why I name her like that ? She's a God's gift for me. She's too beautiful to be true. She's truly bring lotsa happiness to me~ I even don't dare to imagine that one day I can really hug and cuddle her...
Thanks God, for the sweetest gift I receive this month... =3= You're my everything, Dear Jesus...  
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Mom loves her very much. Dad even take her pics with his cellphone. Bro doesn't really like her because I canceled my computer's upgrade for having her... T___T But... My close friends love her so much, she's too cute to be resist, don't you agree...? 
I got my computer's upgrade at the end of this month insted of 6 months ago... My money was flying away from my saving...
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Meh... I love these men so muchie... =3= They're totally handsome with or without sunglasses~
Perhaps some people are more than boring, because I always talk about Gackt, Yoshiki & Kamijo. But... I love them so much, what can I do ? 
Lotsa people said, "They're doing plastic surgery ! Ah look at that thick make up, they look so damn ugly without make up ! Are they a male or female ?! How can you love someone you don't know ?!" !@#$*&^%
I wonder, why people are against of plastic surgery and make up that much ? Do you think people are doing those things only to make you laugh ? They risk their life in surgery room, or buying lotsa expensive make up, it's all to make their appearance becomes more more and more beautiful~
Is it a sin to make yourself become more lovely ?
And they aren't using our money. They work very hard to get the money. And those artists & musicians do all of these to satisfy their fans, including you & me, right ? So I think it's their (and God's) right to do anything with their own body.
I myself am not interested in plastic surgery and make up things, since I'm thinking to use the money for other necessity and I'm not a feminine person. My bro said that I'm a brutal man trapped in a half woman body, LOL~ 
Hahhh... Anyway... I love them because what they are...I ever see them without make up, I ever see their high school photos, and I don't care. ~Ayumi Hamasaki, Gackt & Yoshiki at High School~ I'm a BIG fan of them, and don't care with those things.
I appreciate them as a very talented musician and idol. I love them and there's no excuse about that.
~My Honey, My Bunny, My Baby~
The first, the last, my everything... And the answer to all my dreams... You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star... My kind of wonderful, that's what you are...
(You're My First, My Last, My Everything, by Barry White)
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A very important note :
This year is full of talented musicians' death. First is Michael Jackson. Then Mbah Surip, from my own country, Indonesia.
And now...
Jasmine You, a member from Versailles -Philharmonic Quintet-. He was this band's bassist until his death announced August 9th.
Their first major album is postponed now. Dunno until when. No more news about it... I've pre order it last month and hope it won't be canceled. Please, pleasee, pleaseee..................... It makes me want to buy their indie singles & albums, hiks...
   
I'm so sad because he was one of my fave bassist, even though his stage appearance & photos for magazines always eccentric for me, but he was so damn hot & handsome out of his costumes.
Thanks to Ebichuu Chan for this photo.
It's hard for me to accept this sad news, but I try to manage my heart. I pray for his (and MJ, also Mbah Surip) best at Heaven.
May you rest in peace, Jasmine You-Sama.
(Rest in peace, MJ... Rest in peace, Mbah Surip...)
And I hope Versailles won't disband because of this. It may sounds cruel and egoiste, but I've lost my X Japan (though they're re-group now), and also Malice Mizer, I don't want to lose anymore...

I always hate parting.. disgroup... and whatever its name.... It always hurt the fans.. the feeling of belonging... the true love for all of them..... I ever feel it, long time ago, not only from music thing, but from c...... ... Yah you know... 
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I've lost Hide from X Japan on May 2, 1998...
Then I lost Kami from Malice Mizer on June 21, 1999...
Now... Jasmine You from Versailles on August 9, 2009...

It is impossible to return to the blissful moment... The blooms of the eternal snow... Without leaving me, always, always continue to live in me...
(Setsurenka, by Lareine)
Do you know how terribly sad am I right now ?
Why I must always lose the one that I love so much...?
I think I'm a curse for those people that I love...
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N.B :
Please respect my works, don't ever claim it as yours. Even my works isn't perfect, but it's done with my all (now I sound like Ayumi, LOL). So, please respect yourself, and respect others, okay...? (~___^)v Thanks for your understanding~
~ ~ ~ ~  August is my 1st month since I said I quit from coming to a cosplay event. Cosplay event means an organized event that has cosplay as their main theme.
I won't come to any cosplay event in the future. Except my favorite cosplayers are coming and cosplaying there. Who knows, hmm, for example : Arisa, Yolk or Stay, will come to Jakarta, Indonesia ? Aww, it will be so wonderful~ 
One of Arisa's cosplay photo, can't resist her overload cuteness~ >0< Forgive my crappy editing, Arisa-San... Huks...
Yolk's newest cosplay, very cool~ =3= Yolk also wants a BJD~ Good luck, Yolk-San ! Hope you get your dream doll soon~ Yolk is a very nice person, sometimes I got replied from Yolk's deviantart~ 
Or... Perhaps I get a lucky draw ~free ticket to Taiwan, Thailand or Japan~, so I can meet them personally... LOL I've been waiting for the time I finally can meet them... Hope it will happen soon~
And... I'm truly glad, Stay was updating photos at lassttt... :3 Stay's newest cosplay photo ~ Mei-Chan no Shitsuji :
~I want to be the pillow... I want to get hugged by Stay-Sama... Kyaaa... My God, I need to breath... Stay just like "Edward to Bella" for me~ XD
Stay ever cosplay as Shitsuji (Butler) before, as Sebastian from Kuro no Shitsuji :
So handsome... One of a very few perfect Sebastian cosplayer~
Missing Stay so much... Thanks for the update... I'm worrying you so much, Stay-San... T^T Hope you're okay... Ganbatte nee, Stay-San !!
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I want to give you a dream... I want you to have a dream... That never ends or disappears... That's my wish... I want to protect you... No matter what happens... I will protect you... With my all...
(My All, by Ayumi Hamasaki)
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All photos, pictures & emoticons are credited to the respective owners. Some of them are credited to me.
That's for now. Until then, bye bye... 
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